Well screw your family.

But seriously...

Eleanor Roosevelt said 'No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.' I have taken those words to heart, and remind myself of them often.

First and foremost, the thing that is important more than anything else is that YOU'RE DOING THIS FOR YOURSELF AND NO ONE ELSE. Not your family, not your friends, not me, not anyone but YOURSELF. I know it's easy for me to sit here and say this, when I'm not in your situation... but I have been in your situation, believe me. I guess I've just reached a point in my life where I'm finally completely fed up with worrying about what others think about me, who I am or what I may be doing. Now that's not to say that I go out of my way to piss people off (depends on who it is, really)... you get the drift of what I'm saying.

Some things to ponder...

1) No 14 year old ever wasted away because they didn't have junk food. Tell her if she wants it THAT badly, she needs to bring her own when she comes to see you, because you're not providing it for her, period.

2) I know money's tight, and space in your house is probably tight, too, but you might give some thought to either some type of exercise equipment that you can use when the weather's bad, or maybe a membership somewhere close by - you can swing a dead cat around here without hitting a Curves, and a lot of the ladies I work with just rave about the place. Their hours don't fit in with my schedule, otherwise I'd probably join. At least that way, you'd have an option for days when the weather's nasty.

3) Have you talked to your doctor about your diet? I was just looking back at one of your previous posts where you listed what a typical day's menu was. I'm no nutritionist, but I'd say if that's what you're sticking to normally, you're probably right on target.

I, too, wish I could just stop eating, because if I can't eat what I want to eat then what's the point?

I've gotten soooooooooooooooo off track after being sick this last week. I haven't been on the elliptical, haven't had the energy for it. AND (and this is the worst, I'd say.........) I have injected my insulin in about a week, either. Legitimately, the first two days I was so very sick that I forgot to do it before collapsing into bed. The third day rolled around and I realized I hadn't done it... and by that point I couldn't bring myself to do it. Ever since I found out before Christmas about the insulin-makes-you-gain-weight thing, I've struggled to give myself that shot every night, because I feel almost as if I'm injecting poison into myself. I know I need to get back to doing it. I've been too afraid to check my numbers, although I know they are likely to be off, too, just from being sick.

Ugh.

I think we both need a long break, somewhere with a beach, and slushy drinks that come with little paper umbrellas...

Hang in there...